Woo~ Had our zone's thanksgiving yesterday haha.. The theme is 'retro' so everyone kind of need to dress a little retro (some totally).. Waha.. so we had fun laughing at each other~




















that's sis suting at my house preparing the 200 over chicken wings with me~ There are still some in my fridge, if anyone wants.. feel free to call me. We ran out of oil haha.. Look at the pail..~ Personal breakthrough for both of us! CheErs.




















Our sweat and blood~ Literally... Of which I didn't eat any haha.. Must give some credits to Cai's mum who gave us the recipe and Jonathon and Henry who cfmed that i must really put flour on the marinated chicken before cooking.. and Swee who went down to get aluminium foil for us and Sis jinlian who started the ball rolling by asking 'why haven't cooked? what are u all waiting for?' Wahahaha..















That's meijia sharing some narcissistic moments with me in the toilet




















Hi!

aaaahhhhh this christmas has been a tremendous one for me! Singing in the choir.. bringing friends.. drama.. carnival..hanging out.. receiving gifts!(thanks friends!).. giving gifts.. Ahhhh nice nice!! =) ! But happiest of all was the moment at the altar call.. I received 2 best christmas gifts there.. Wahahahhaha.. Hor KaiLin? LOL~ However it was not the very nice drama nor the very nice choir nor the very nice preaching nor the very nice people that made it a very nice christmas. But rather Jesus was there to make it all happen. Though expo is big big big but not to worry, our God is biggER and His presence is able to fill up very inch in Hall 8. =)

Anyway, these are some of the photos I took.. Guess they speak better than me.. haha..















My gifts for friends.. Mostly for my cg girls haha, sorry ah not a very 'gift' person.. =P
















Christmas dinner at WeiYing's house.. A rather 'cosy' time for N256 where we also heard the sad news about Chang's departure from N256 to another cg.. Gonna miss him lots.















Ah.. those are Jean and Amanda and together we're in the choir! Ha~ (Think I looked abit funny haha.. )















That's my daddy. Look at the castle behind! =)














HAHA my face looks so big la. Thanks Cai. Waha~
















3 beautiful flowers~~ 9 of us (including daddy) went to east coast for supper after service on sat~ hehe~ On the way home, me and cai counted down together.. Yes only the both of us LOL!! So sweet right.. Some more under the sky~ with wind brushing against our skin~ LOL!!!















My da sao, silly-looking lightbulb and bro jeff!















Look at the Merlion! wahhaha.. Sorry to offend some lol! (Internal joke, not meant to circulate) lol~~ Went to meet kailin n birdy birdy chirp chirp n few others at the Esplanade after dinner





















Lastly, these are the very nice gifts and cards from my very nice friends~ Thank you! =)

AHhhh CHRISTMAS is coming!!!!!! Best time of the year! But I haven't done my Christmas shopping hehe! I'm so gonna feast my heart out for the next few days! And thank God! My dad just bought me a Canon digicam as a Christmas gift! Shiokness~~ Just in time to take a lot a lot of pics hahaha.. Can zi lian once in a while~ Hee!

Hmmmmmm... but as I grow older and start to think more.. I find something pretty ironic.. It seems like the whole nation is celebrating this festival. But do they actually know the origin or meaning of Christmas.. As the name suggests, Christmas is all about Jesus CHRIST and on this day 2005 years ago.. He was born. and the whole earth rejoices! =) But now the significance of Christmas is so diluted, it seems as if it's just another joyous occasion. It's almost equivalent to celebrating Chinese New Year not knowing it was originated from the chinese.. (ya it seems so exaggerated but think about it for a moment..) I learnt last week that during this time of the year, it's when the northern hemisphere is the darkest and gloomiest.. and there's almost nothing to be happy about. Yet God used this time to send His only Son to light up the world. There is now a ray of hope, a glimpse of light for the people living in darkness. Ya this is Christmas.

My oh my. I did 2 breakthrough things today. Went for MOVIE with bro jeff.. and dinner with HIS GF at cafe cartel.. goodness. HAHA.. She's nice la and sweet. Together they make up a sweet couple. I was telling them, I wonder when will my turn come.. haha. Thinking back I realised this is like 'The Little Mermaid''s story.. yeah man. Everything has its season.

Other than that, today was kinda nua for me.. Falling sick~ =( And that KELVIN still tricked me.. Man.. lol~ dead. Thanks leh.. Oh and yay, I may be going KL next week! With Bro jeff and some ushers hahahaha.. I don't care if i'm the only choirist! HAHA.. yipee~

How to study like that?!

That's me with my choir tag!!! =) Isn't it so cool?? oh man i love it~~



YES US! The CHOIR!!!


Cai where are you!! Don't do sha shi!! They are only balloons! lol~

The ET zone's girls with Pst Aries! =)

Me and my good ol' buds! *CheErs*

That's cai! Woah look at her hair!

And YAY we got it! Polariod with Sun!

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Life has been really hectic but fun~ Haha.. hectically fun? And woah~ In a blink of an eye, we're moving over to expo!! 2 more weeks!! I'm certainly going to miss services in our B4 auditorium~ It contains so many memories! Like when it first started at jurong west, I went alone.. I was scared till i nearly cried! LOl~ but the ushers were very friendly and they got me a seat.. and *zoOm* 4 yrs have past! And here I am loving God even more each day.

Oh! And today is my beloved cai's bday! Happy Birthday once AGAIN.. lol~ I had fun ytd at the bbq aka Party By the Canal~ hahaha.. I'm sure HUPHOCK would very much love to join us as well.. LOL! Ah, don't talk about the sad stuff.. hhahaha.. Cai was the one who invited me to church and I think that's my best spiritual birthday present from her! HAHA.. Thanks girl.

I thank God for many really wonderful friends I made in church for I know they are the ones who'll stick around thru thick and thin. We know something the world doesn't, that is, the pure genuine love of God. I will always remember what Bro Edmund said: The world says "If I can see it, then I can believe it." But we say, "If I can believe it, then I can see it."

To digress a little, I meet so many different ppl everyday and one of the more disturbing category of people is those with emotional unstability... In another words, the unpredictable ones. I can honestly say, it's really tiring befriending these ppl.. They take you up and they take you down.. And I tell you, it's not fun. Guard your emotions. Of cos I'm learning to do that as well.. We all have our different set/s of problems.. and it's very important not to let circumstances get in our way. We are called to be problem-solvers and not to be a problem added to someone else's life.. I'm glad I'm standing on solid rock that will not waver in harsh conditions.. Yea~ come what may, there's a fighter inside of me! I'm always so excited about my future hahaha.. becos long ago I've decided to trust in God, the God of no limits. He has shown Himself so faithful to me time and time again, and man, I've grown so dependant on Him! Haha.. I will never forget those nights in my room when He was there as I cried feeling so weak and helpless. He appeared and comforted me like a friend and refreshed my soul.. His words bring life back into me.. And yes, just as He has promised, He will never forsake us nor leave us. =)

Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”
Deuteronomy 31:6

Recently I subscribed to Dr Robb Thompson's daily success key.. (www.winninginlife.com) and he mentioned that life, it is not a race, but a journey to enjoy..
I've observed so many people... they are always rushing through life.. earning big bucks, scoring their As... But, I always wonder if they even know why they are doing those things.. Of cos it's good to be financially rich with a flawless cert. But at the end of the day, are those what they really want? Or... are they looking for something else..? Hmmmmmmm... ;)

Oh hi. haha.. ya haven't been writing.. too many things accumulated till i don't feel like writing so much. haha.. anyway i think i'm going crazy lol.. I bought 7 cds in 1 week.. goodness lol~ not that I have too much money, only cos they were on crazy sale. Haha.. Bought a book too. Nice.

Apart from that, got reprimanded by my leader for spreading stuff i shouldn't and had to apologise to a few.. It's okie we all learn from mistakes. Teachability is the ingredient for growth.

Oh btw, thruout the yrs, one of the most impt thing i've learnt is the art of selecting which comments to receive into yr heart and which comments to bounce off. In other words, it is to guard my heart with the comments people make about me. I mean, people, they can say a thousand things about you, it's not very wise to accept everything... Thank God, I know where I stand in God and I know who I am in God's eyes. My life is so much breezier (if there's such a word) and lighter~ Come what may! My Papa is my shield!

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/
("Breathtaking" presentation)

http://christiananswers.net/creation/aqoo/home.html

some video clips about evolution and stuff
very interesting insights

Thought this will be interesting for all Bio students..

"To put it at its mildest, one may question an evolutionary theory so beset by doubts among even those who teach it. If Darwinism is truly the great unifying principle of biology, it encompasses extraordinarily large areas of ignorance. It fails to explain some of the most basic questions of all: how lifeless chemicals came alive, what rules of grammar lie behind the genetic code, how genes shape the form of living things."—*Francis Hitching, The Neck of the Giraffe (9182), pp. 108, 117.

"[The instructions within the DNA of the cell] if written out, would fill a thousand 600-page books. Each cell is a world brimming with as many as two hundred trillion tiny groups of atoms called molecules . . Our 46 chromosome `threads' [in one DNA molecule] linked together would measure more than six feet. Yet the nucleus that contains them is less than four ten-thousandths of an inch in diameter."—*Rick Gore, "The Awesome Worlds Within a Cell," National Geographic, September 1976, pp. 357-358, 360.

"Mathematicians agree that any requisite number beyond 1050 has, statistically, a zero probability of occurrence (and even that gives it the benefit of the doubt!). Any species known to us, including the smallest single-cell bacteria, have enormously larger number of nucleotides than 100 or 1000. In fact, single cell bacteria display about 3,000,000 nucleotides, aligned in a very specific sequence. This means that there is no mathematical probability whatever for any known species to have been the product of a random occurrence—random mutations (to use the evolutionist's favorite expression)."—I.L. Cohen, Darwin was Wrong (1984), p. 205.

"To involve purpose is in the eyes of biologists the ultimate scientific sin . . The revulsion which biologists feel about the thought that purpose might have a place in the structure of biology is therefore revulsion to the concept that biology might have a connection to an intelligence higher than our own."—Sir Fred Hoyle and *Chandra Wickramasinghe, Evolution from Space (1981), p. 32.
(take some time to try to digest this)

"The irony is devastating. The main purpose of Darwinism was to drive every last trace of an incredible God from biology. But the theory replaces God with an even more incredible deity—omnipotent chance."—*T. Rosazak, Unfinished Animal (1975), pp. 101-102.

"I am not satisfied that Darwin proved his point or that his influence in scientific and public thinking has been beneficial . . the success of Darwinism was accomplished by a decline in scientific integrity."—*W.R. Thompson, Introduction to *Charles Darwin, Origin of the Species.
(Oh i like this! Haha.. Hope my bio teacher happens to chance by my blog haha)

http://www.pathlights.com/ce_encyclopedia/09nsel02.htm
http://www.pathlights.com/ce_encyclopedia/09nsel03.htm
(facts against evolution. Oh am I rebellious or what? Haha.. No la go read it, I think they are so sensible.)

goodness. Special request by she herself..
goodness. No comment!
Just have to agree and post it reluctantly..
And maybe add a 'Eh so cute you..'

Yup that's her. There that one la... lol~

Beloved Cai!!! My LIFETIME friend!!!

Beloved N256!!! Love you SO SO SO much!!!

You know once in a while
We meet someone special
Someone who colours our life
By just being in it

Out of the billions
We became friends
Isn't that a miracle?
Yes I think so

Oh it was brought to my remembrance about this song I sang in primary school. I still remember it was the first song in the songbook. Haha..
Here is how it goes...

A smile is such a funny thing
It wrinkles up your face
And when it's gone
You'll never find
Its secret hiding place
He smiles at you
You smile at him
And so one smile makes two!

So smiling will result in an increase of ratio 2! (1, 2, 4, 8, 16, ...) Therefore it's in a geometric progression! Haha..

Ah had choir practice just now! Okie and I think all of you of sick of me saying 'It's so nice la!', especially you-know-who. Haha but too bad!!! I'm going to say it again!!!!!!! IT'S SO NICE LA! My goodness. I mean you don't just learn how to sing but also learn other stuff like how to improve the quality of your life. Just to sum up, we learnt today that WITH God, all things are possible. So, partner God!!! And please, we should all move out of our boxes! Do something new today! =)

Having a sore throat, cough and flu now.. so quarantined myself at home. Not so much that I don't wanna go school but more of I don't wanna spread it to anyone else.. We all deserve to enjoy our upcoming holidays!!! =) And ya yusu, i really wanna play tennis again! Wait for me to get well okie. Hehe..

Ah! Played tennis with my classmates again! Eh fun leh haha.. But hurt my wrist. Ah nvm... For the sake of playing haha.. Feel kinda sick now though.. =( Don't think it's becos of tennis la.. Caught a cold.. Oh maybe it's becos of the air con.. Went in fresh from the 'oven'.. Hmm.. Okie.
Friends, take care hor. =) Oh and today is YANGYANG's birthday! Happy 17! =)

The air is thick
Saturated with Your presence
My heart is filled
Overflowing with Your glory
It is you Lord
Who captivates me
All my days
I will sing Your praises
And give to You
A living sacrifice.

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It's monday. It didn't feel right going back to school again.. I fell asleep for all the lectures la. The only fun thing was I went to play tennis with the wall while they had chinese and after school with my classmates.. Hmm actually the wall can be a good companion... at least it will return your ball everytime u hit. Haha.. Okie that's so much for today. Oh ya, and we took back our promos results today. Erm.. no comments la but cfm can promote..

And yay! Friday!!! N256's girls' night out! Haha.. So cool. Reponse is good. Ah. Let's see what's we're up to.. HAha.. we seriously need a good fellowship time together.. can't sense the closeness we used to have. oKie! think it'll be great.

And ya, I took out my old diary yesterday (last entry was mar 04 haha..) and started writing things I will never ever ever write here. Haha.. for my future's sake and some things are not convenient to show the whole world. Diary is thoughts you wanna preserve for yourself and blog is thoughts you want people to read.. So there's a difference haha.. I was reading through a few entries and was thinking "wah so that was how i was that time." Haha.. I strongly urge all of you to keep one la. HAha.. I think it'll be funny when you grow old and read those.. It's like stepping back into history once again. =)
Oh, Cai and alice! I talked about both of you in my diary. I was saying sth like.. "I think Cai and alice are God's greatest gifts for me." Ah.. MUST CRY hor. Can u just imagine if I become an ah ma and I read through this and think.. "Huh? Who are they?" LOL! Haha no la won't la hor.. We will grow old together! Haha how fun can that be! =) I am just so looking forward to my future la.. LOL~ Of cos there will be tribulations but I'm riding on the wings of GOD! Not afraid ya.. =)

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People with poor manners simply turns me off. Totally.
Not that I have really good manners all the time...
Like I say, just tell me if you think I'm rude.
I don't wanna get on anyone's nerves or turn anyone off as far as possible.
Everyone has their own set/s of problems and I believe you don't have to let the entire world know by giving 'that' face, like the entire world owes you something.
As far as possible, let's not be the one adding on to someone else's problems.
Yes, I tried hard to love.
Maybe it's just not enough?
I don't know if anyone, in my shoes, can.
If we want respect, earn it.
It is the principle of reaping what you sowed.

On the other hand, I thank God for such people, who never fail to stretch my heart's capacity. Who make it easier for me to tolerate and love so many more people. I surprised myself by not losing my cool last dreadful night. *cheErs*

Hmm.. I observed something. People who are usually depressed are those who 'think too much'. They fear this and that.. I really donno how to put it.. But I'm sure you have met people like that? They always question themselves about a lot of stuff.. "What if..", "Can I..", "If only.."

But people who are generally happy.. Are those who take things as they come. Those who know that nothing is predictable.. Plan A fails? What's Plan B then? They are the ones who can appreciate the beauty of the present. They don't understand what's the fuss about being sad over things that they can't change. Walking through a valley? Enjoy the moments in it until you finally walk through it! Since you can't go anywhere, anyway. No point throwing a tantrum and refusing to move on. You will only end up curling up and die.

In my life I've failed so many times. I'm only a human... I have flaws and imperfection. That's why I need God who can change me to be more like Him. While in the darkest valley, lost and confused, His light shined ever so brightly to guide my path. He gives me a vision and a hope. Being a Christian doesn't mean I become sinless, it only means that I admit I am a sinner and need God's forgiveness. It means that I admit my strength is insufficient.. My flesh is weak.. I need God.

My flesh and my heart fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Psalm 73:26

Woo la la~ what a day!! Love it!!
Started off playing the new pieces of songs from esplanade. Nice la. I printed 'Endless Love' still learning haha.. it's a vocal piece actually so the music is like background music. Interesting yet challenging.. haha.. then i met Alice.. This girl.. Made me do a patience test. I think I scored a B la.. cos while waiting 3/4way i went back home to play my 'Endless Love'.. Sigh. What to do... For her future's sake I sacrifice lor. hahaha.. Oh, we didn't go Little India. Not convenient to say here later police come catch me hahaha.. so we went Far East haha.. must be careful if you ever go.. there are a lot of 'traps' LOL~ Anway, I enjoyed it. Thanks Girl. But please remember to eat more fish and write down anything you wanna tell me. Pls have a pen beside you at any moment.. PLEASE. hahahaha..

Oh and I went to meet my dad for dinner after that.. and girl he actually asked me why you didn't join us.. wasted la u. hAha.. I told him it was because you are SHY. We went to Jack's Place! Nearly didn't.. Cos when he asked where do i wanna eat I let him decide.. but secretly I wanted Jack's place. Thank God we had telepathy hehe.. HOW!!! eat eat eat.. Now i have a new nickname la.. Not something I'm very proud of la.. Alice pls. HAHAHA..

My dad and I were talking about university... He told me to get a job we need more than just a cert.. we need the X factor! Character... dressing... hair... And don't be afraid to invest in nice clothes! Never wasted.. Thankfully he doesn't mind the price hahaha.. we went to paragon since he was a little sick and didn't wanna cross the road over to taka.. *faint* LOL.. but we ended up not buying anything la. Shopping cannot rush one! hahaha.. Try again next time la. HAha..

And now, do I sound very materialistic? HAHA.. No la actually I'm not. lol.. See what holidays can turn me into.. my dad cautioned me to watch my weight. =)

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AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
FINALLLYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pardon me. =)

Couldn't sleep last night! Tossed and turned and tossed and turned.. Why??? My mind is so occupied with the activities I'm going to do! =) After that dreadful chem paper that is. Wah sian totally no interest in chem.. HOW! cannot la.. I didn't really study la for it la. God change my heart! Sigh. Anyway paper was challenging I should say.. Nvm it's over. Havoc begins.

After the paper.. me and yusu actually went to the fitness corner and played la. With the so called 'see-saw' and the balancing rope.. I didn't know we could be amused by that! Long lost childhood ah. haha.. then we joined Mel and a few guys to play tennis! Funness! Went home feeling kinda sleepy... nOnono cannot sleep. Once i sleep I won't feel like going out anymore.. Haha.. So I went to the Esplanade to pass some time before meeting my cg for steamboat at marina bay hehe.. But I was late la. Captivated by the scores in the library.. So so many.. But yang i'm sorry i was rushing for time so didn't really look thoroughly for nice songs for you.. Oh, and the dinner was great! Love it! Filled with laughter and fun 'activities' like frying the fat mosquito.. coming up with our own recipes and suggesting to play 'zhong ji mi ma' LOL! Of cos didn't la yucks. lol.. N256 simply rocks la. Love it!

Tmr another long day. YAY! Going for an excursion to little india with ah li si! then Meeting my dad too in the evening to go shopping! Ah nice. Hope everything goes as planned hehehe.. Looking forward! =)

GP done
BIO done
Happiness!

My dad called and reminded me of the shopping trip with him after exams hehehe.. Happiness!
Went for choir practice just now.. It was great as always. LOVE IT!!! The choir is bunch of nice people la. loveitloveitloveit. I simply just anticipate every practice and duty. I put that above my shopping trips and Sentosa! And food.. =) And even if he is not there hahaha..

4 more days....
Breathe in....
Breathe out....
Don't get too excited!

AIYO.. Supposed to be study break today.. but not fruitful i think.. =( Must really crucify my flesh sia. So many temptations.. Like when I think of what to do after exam.. hehe.. Kenneth called just now!!! Surprised! Haven't heard his voice of like years.. haha.. Going to watch movie and eat with him after exam! YAY! lol.. Then right after the last paper, have a date with my dad.. Go shopping!!! =) then i must chiong sentosa again =) with alice n cai! Happiness. Then i can go out late again! See.. I've been such an angel till now. HAHA.. no la.

Woke me up
Asked for this person's no
Prank-called that person
Person called me

I can't believe people are still doing such thing! It's like c'mon... It's high time to grow up!!! It's disgusting. Okie ya I used to prank called people too but I didn't involved another party.. And I did that when I was YOUNG.. when I was still CHILDISH in my mindset. If I still do that now... Condemn me. (sorry for the lack of vocabulary.)

PHew! what a day!!! Cell group meeting was fantastic!!!!! Firstly, Jane gave us a surprise 'visit' which caught everyone off guard. We were playing this game when suddenly WeiYing excused herself to open the door for her 'new friend'. She told us that her friend was very SHY and wanted all of us to close our eyes.. LOL~ then her friend came in and 1, 2, 3 all of us opened and was really SHOCKED. No one expected Jane la! HAHA.. She flew back from Aussie on thursday but decided to keep mum about it to surprise us during cg.. HAHA cool. And she brought back A LOT of chocolates, nougats and gummy sweets hehe.. THANKS! Great joy. HAha.. We also celebrated YeeKiat's bday after cg and it was like so advanced la. 5 days in advance. HAha.. But one sad thing is today sis jinlian announced that JieTing is transfering to a new cg.. that was a very emotional moment.. lots of tearing... But i think she's going to grow from glory to glory there. Ya it's always not easy to part but it seems like everytime we part we grow more matured.. Hmm..



Went to orchard to meet caijun. HEhe.. We went for a haircut!!! =) At Le Salon at takashimaya. It was so high-class!! Oh man.. We felt kinda out of place there.. HAHA.. But anyway the cut was nice and the best thing was.. I don't have to pay a cent!!!! Happiness! Supposedly it cost 58 bucks.. PTL! Reason being CaiJun knows this friend, who knows this friend who is a hairstylist under training... So we were sort of like her guinea pigs hehe but she has 3 yrs of experience so not a problem.. And know what??? We saw Taufik there cutting his hair!!!!! HAHA.. The place was really nice. Highly recommended. Bad for your wallet though hehe..

After the satisfying experience, we went to do a bit of shopping then headed for home! I actually told cai I felt homesick. HAHA.. Coincidently, LekTeng boarded the train in the same cabin as us and I was so surprised to see her!!! Haven't seen her since we received our O lvl results.. So we caught up with each other during that short period in the train.. She told "U seem to put on weight leh.." LOL! Han nor. Can't deny la.. hahahaha..

Yup that was my very happy day! =)

Haven't been online so often now.. Revealing the guai side of Aileen. =)
Partly due to promo and.. There was something wrong with my mouse after my mum cleaned the com area.. so I can only use the keyboard to navigate around.. not something interesting. You try la! haha.. After 2 days, I think my bro got fed up or sth and bought a new optical mouse. But after buying.. the old mouse can work for some reasons. So! There are now 2 mouses connected to my com. HAHA! So ridiculous right.

Anyway other than this, nothing happening has happened. Life is kinda monotonous now.. Weeks passed like nobody's business. Erm.. is that an irony? Ah, nvm. Can't wait for promos to come. Or rather to be over.. Ya I wrote that previously but i seriously can't wait. HEe..

Alice, I donno what have happened to us seriously... It's more than just a coincidence I think...
It's starting to get freaky... I don't wish to think in that direction though... Maybe it's some spiritual warfare... You know how the devil can't stand us when we shine too brightly or when we're too on fire for God... he can't stand the light... But know that the battle is not ours, but God's. He is on our side. And know that actually the battle has been won. Not to worry, I'm actually quite excited to know the outcome of what will happen to us hehe... Cos I know it's nothing bad. Oh ya, thanks for sharing with me and bringing this matter to light. =)

Ahhh.. having a lot of weird dreams nowadays. A lot A lot.. Not my fault also. Haha..
Like the first one, I dreamt that my ____ is dead. Second, dreamt that I was attached to this guy.. Third, dreamt that I wore my pyjamas to church! So on and so forth. Hahaha I donno to laugh or to cry..

Oh, and nowadays I've been walking to and from school everyday. Pretty enjoy those journey though it's only me and God. Or maybe that's the reason why I like it. Sometimes socialising can be so draining u know.. At least for me. I'm not the very people-person at least for now.. Some should know why.. LOL~ But doesn't mean I don't like people to be around me just that I need some time to be with myself sometimes. =) Seriously I can't wait to get my butt off JJ. I want back my havoc life!!! After A lvl I'm going to revenge LOL~ At this instance, my mind has already involuntarily brainstormed a list of to-do things. Hmmm... loOks pretty interesting! =)

Wah love seems to be in the air! =) I thought I can literally feel it hehehe.. And no, I'm not in love with anyone, nor is anyone in love with me hehe.. But people around me are/were so loving!! =) *so loved* Esp my church friends.. Guess we have all experienced the genuine, unconditional love of God to be able to exude it out to each other as well. =) Well, of course, those who are skeptical about this would think that we are all hypocrites. Let them be, we don't lose out anyway. =) We had our fair share of critics and I guess we're immuned to them, so stay cool and calm.. don't panick. =)

Service was great today! All of us witnessed the healing power of God in the place. People were healed of long-term illnesses like a bent spine as well as short-term ones like a sunburn! =)
Nothing is too hard for our God ya?? =)

"What do you want Me to do for you?"
- Jesus

Had a combined sub-zone meeting today.. wah wah.. it was good la. Fun. So many games.. haha. and mooncakes.. Aiya one thing about me is I laugh/ed too much.. Especially during the drama la.. I find everything so amusing la! lol~ and you know la, when i get really high, I get really out of my mind. quite rythm (is that how u spell it?? rythme? raim? LOL~) ah nvm. Oh, a few of us played lanterns and sparklers (correct spelling? yes right.. but when we pronounce it sounds like sparkeler right? okie.. I was just wondering.. hehe..) Wah.. brought back a lot of memories. I used to look so forward towards lantern festival!! So can play with candles.. =) I was just asking the rest "why do people like to see things being burnt?" hahaha.. For me I think fire is so mysterious.. It can give you light and heat but can also destroy things.. And the sight of a completely whole thing being reduced to ashes at such an instant is (hmm i shouldn't say amazing right? that'd sound so sadistic. haha..) captivating. Okie nvm talking rubbish.. (no pun intended) haha..

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Sian someone just labelled me something offensive. But not on purpose la. but still.. I didn't hesitate to tell him off. *Note: Before labelling someone, check the meaning of the label.
If not, you're just insulting your own intelligence. Of course I can be a very nice person, =) But I'm not an angel, I have a limit too. Once anyone exceeds that, no I won't blast at that person, that's a total waste of everything. I will do what I think is most wise and just ignore him/her. Full stop. Occasionally I may just smile reluctantly but all can tell it's a fake one. And no, i'm not someone who hides my emotions... I think my facial expressions tell a lot. Like today, yusu had a taste of my pms LOL~ and I thot it was funny when leeling told me I forgot to zip my skirt! LOL~ She said it in a not very soft voice la. lol~ even the guys heard it LOL~.. so funny.. Forgot to zip it ytd or the day before as well! YuSu told me silently LOL~ From this you can tell i'm not someone who is so conscious about how people think of me.. and seriously i don't really care.. haha.. but i don't think i'm that bad la hor? HOpefully la. hahaha.. And of course I'm still learning and growing to be more like Christ. If you have sth unhappy about me just tell me, I wanna learn from it too.. =)

I dont know if everyone is depressed or stressed.. But today seemed like a chocolatey day.. Even the guys in my class were munching on chocolates.. Hmmmmmmm.. =)

Nothing much to say today leh. Exam fever now but I still can't tuned in to the mood yet.. HOW! Haha.. Talking about tuning in.. Class 95 rocks! lol~ I listen to it every night till I hear a not-so-nice song then I will she de to sleep.. *hint* Can dedicate songs to me if you want lol~ No pressure ah but I will love you more haha..

Could this be love? *shrugs*

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Crazy me. Just went on a chocolate craze.. Bought 8.85 bucks worth of chocolates.. And they are all not for me! Haha.. I don't even she de splurge on myself like that.. Haha but the shopping experience was fun la. Haha.. It was a reminiscence on what happened last yr in Medan. We went hysterical when we entered the supermarket.. Everything was so cheap! To the extent whereby we didn't need to think of the price and just grabbed whatever we want haha.. Highness. HAHA.. And of course my trolley was filled with what else but CHOCOLATES.. loads and loads of them.. Now thinking about it, I wished I had the guts to grab more hehe.. Must train up KaiLiang now. LOL~ Oh ya, that day I spent around 90000Rupiah and I fumbled with the cash haha.. There was once I gave the cashier a 5000 note when my goods cost 50000.. LOL~ We looked at each other. I didn't know why she was looking at me but thankfully my Medan friend came to the rescue.. LOL~ Seldom see so many zeros in my whole life.. haha.. But other than food, there are nothing much to shop around.. The wet market was literally wet and dirty and when it rained, it became a 'muddy market'. lol.. But it was quite thrilling to walk through the market. There were vehicles moving about like it was not squeezy enough.. haha.. And they killed the kampong chicken on the spot upon ordering! Ah, that was memorable. =) A rare sight to behold. There was one night!! My favourite!!! At first I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me when I saw a streak of light in the sky. "No, it can't be a shooting star.. siao." So I shook off the silly fantasy. But deep inside I secretly hope it was hehe.. So I cfmed with another friend and she said 'ya! I also saw!' Okie so for the rest of the night, a group of us stayed up and just stared at the sky! Haha.. It was really an unforgetable night.. We laid outside our rooms at the so-called backyard and witnessed the most amazing scene! The stars kept shooting around! And I got so high! Whenever I saw one, I would squeal and point and get uptight. LOL~ And I did that for 11 times! LOL~ It brings me to wonder why beautiful things come and go like a lightning. Or maybe if they stay a little longer, we would take them for granted? So they're smart. They keep us in suspense.. And keep us yearning for more..

An Iceberg! I think the picture is so beautifully taken. Ah.. Breathtaking. =) But most of the time we can only see its tip. And that is also what caused the sinking of the seemingly "Unsinkable Titanic".

Most of the time we ignore life's trivial problems and until the day we realised they actually exist, it is too late. They have become so big, we can't handle. Therefore, it is so important to be sensitive to what you are getting yourself into.. Back to the picture, the sea is vast. If there is an iceberg in your way, the most common sense thing to do is to navigate away from it right? It's like so "duh?" Though the tip may be small, but the sea area is so big! Just turn away la? Full stop, no worries. Same for us, if you know doing something will eventually do you no good, then do something else! We must be more flexible sometimes.. There are so many options in life. Choose wisely. This is a reminder to myself too. I must admit I succumb to my flesh at times, doing things I know I shouldn't do and not doing things I ought to. Only to end up adding to my already sufficient problems. And again, I pray to have more wisdom.

I just watched a documentary on the Discovery Channel about life before birth. That is, life of a fetus in the womb. I was so amazed at the complexity of God's mind. Scientists hate to admit that there are things which can't be proven by science. They refuse to acknowledge God as our Creator. You and me, as we often hear, are all results of a miracle. And what does 'miracle' mean?
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Definition of 'Miracle' by Dictionary.com
An event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God: “Miracles are spontaneous, they cannot be summoned, but come of themselves” (Katherine Anne Porter).
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With reference to my Bio notes on Cell and Nuclear Division, it is written "The Cell Theory states that all new cells are derived from pre-existing cells." So, where does these pre-existing cells appear from? If anyone has the answer, please enlighten me... =)

P.S: While searching for the miracle-in-making picture above, I also sadly came across a few tragic halts to the miracle-in-making processes. In life there are so many important decisions to make, I pray to be wiser..

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When our eyes met
A snapshot was taken
in the recesses of my mind
The moment freezed like I gladly wanted it to

Butterflies fluttered excitedly in my stomach
I'm not sure if I liked that
Words were choked
It was hard to even breathe

What are my hormones up to this time?
Hmmmmmmmmmm...

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Felt like rollerblading just now so wheeeeee off I went at around 8pm. In a mere 25-30 minutes SO many incidents happened!!! (Note: it's "incidents" not "accidents" haha)
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No 1: I whee-ed past this 50+ yr old woman who was walking. It so happened she was walking
on the metal-covered drain and when I whee-ed past, the cover "grumbled" and she had a
shock! LOL!! She mumbled "Aiyo shock ah." LOL~ I said "sorry!" and whee-ed away.
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No 2: Around 2 minutes after that, I took a rollercoaster ride but I think it was worse. I whee-ed down a long slope which was kinda steep for wheels. I tried to slow down by swerving left

and right to create more resistence but around 1/4 down the slope there was a bicycle behind me. So I kind of panicked. The path wasn't very wide, just the 'normal' ones around, with a few motorcycles parking by

the sides which made it even slimmer. So if I continued swerving, the bicycle would bang

into me. So the only thing I could do was to whee down. So fast. My adrenaline was

splashing out. It was so thrilling.. I would enjoy it IF ONLY there wasn't anyone in front of

me. But unfortunately, there was a woman walking in front. So it was like I'm trapped in

between a bicycle and a woman. (Of all times..) One thing about rollerblades (or rather

my rollerblades) is that the brake is unreliable. It's no better if I remove it. So I went

down the slope with no brake, no safety guards. So the next best thing to do was to shout

"Excuse me!" to the woman in front. =) Phew~ Thank God nothing happened and I

whee-ed away with a heave of relief. But it could turn out disastrous.

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No 3: I was on my way home at the void deck. Then suddenly this motorcycle appeared
out of a bent which was hidden from my view and zoomed past me. If I was to whee-ed
like 1 or 2 seconds faster, it would bang me painfully.
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woo.. ya that was it. My very thrilling night.

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Know what? My last entry just vanished into the World Wide Web. This is the problem with technology.. Nothing beats the trustworthy pen and paper.. Haha.. Okie, Sally will go "NOoo! You can't use 'nothing'! It is too extreme! Class, I'm not sure if you really understand.." LOL~
Anyway, kind courtesy of me, I'm going to oblige to Henry's request to rewrite. Haha..
But I won't go into details..
I was saying.......
I had a fun fun day at Sentosa!! The sun was out smiling at us (me n cai) and that made us 2 very happy people in the world. =) We went to Siloso beach, crossed the bridge and stepped into another island (which is man-made). The waters were calm because it is sort of trapped in between the real and fake island. Sounds wrong.. haha.. Anyway, we went for a dip and woO we were very happy. We laid where the waves 'caressed' the shore and tanned. So we went tanning and dipping and tanning and dipping. =) And we were happy. We did that for 3 hours or so.. So Henry, don't say I will look the same. =) My back is red la. Bad. I hope the colour will retain till Sunday. Hahaha.. But judging from past experienceS, I am not that confident. We attempted to jog after that. 30 mins passed, and it was still an attempt. =) We ended up walking.. to nowhere actually. Haha.. but we passed by some dilapidated houses which were kind of freaky. I remember a group of us (sec 2 classmates) had a crazy idea to explore the house. Before we even stepped into a room, we heard a 'mess' of squeaky noises of the rats (xls, I hope you weren't one of them) and some burnt joss papers on the floor. We freaked out and ran out. =) End of story. Haha.. See, Sentosa is such a sentimental? place. I have so many fond memories there.. Which make it my number 1 (eee so cliche!) chill out haven. =)

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Looking forward to tmr!!! Not exactly the bio lecture but the trip to sentosa after that!!! Ya I know I've been there not long too long ago.. but it's a place I'll never ever get bored of!! Never! Especially with your close friends.. =) You can just go there and laze your day away and still enjoy every moment of it hehe..
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It's nice at night too! There was once my usher friend drove a group of us there at ard 10 plus.. we went up to one of the "twin towers".. The stars, although not many, were a sight to behold. It's super romantic I tell you.. haha.. Oh talking about usher, I don't miss ushering but I really miss the friends I made there.. Last yr a group of 4 of us went to Malaysia for a super short getaway!! It is one trip I will never forget!! We went around eating! Ya it's like what else can you do.. We were kind of tight financially too so we combined all our remaining little money and ate some more lol~ We had a crazy plan to travel to KL after eating.. It was so impromtu but I like! We reached there at ard 12 plus? Can't remember but everything was so dead. Ha.. Oh then we went to the twin towers (what do u call that?) WAH, they were so majestic! We stood in front of the towers and man did we felt so small. Bro Jeff if you're reading this, thanks so much for even wanting to bring this crazy girl out. You took such a big risk and responsibility! *evil grin*
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Looking forward to next year's backpacking with yeekiat! Don't care we must celebrate after surviving the 'A'gonising Level. =) Seriously I can't wait u know.. Can't wait for everything to be over and start another phase of my life.. I'm like so looking forward to my future haha.. Especially.. Ah nvm. =)

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Wah. I donno what is wrong with me.. I am so evil!!! LOL~ Can't stand it..
I didn't mean to shriek out the "EEE!" during GP today!! Forgive me!!! LOL~
But I was just freaked out by the wordiness of his paper!!! Involuntary shriek! LOL~
Think it is only right for me to apologise to him.. =)

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Didn't go school today hehe.. I think I have made a good decision! Cos they were released at 830.. Danced for half an hour?! Like that also fun.. I'd rather gain some beauty sleep hehehe.. Thot of going back to beloved fuhua but was.. too unmotivated. Hehe.. another nicer word for lazy. Yup so i went to meet with Bird at jp to study.. Erm, a little unfruitful la. Then we went to meet up the rest to go for a wake.. There were so much to discover about a wake. Kind of interesting to hear so many "rules" about what to do and what not and why.. Had a great time of fellowship with the girls.. Love 'em! As I am quite, or rather very, emotional, I thought Bro Tan was so strong. I donno how I would react to this situation if I was in his shoes.. Probably cry my eyes out i donno.. Ya no point crying some may say but it makes me feel better so who cares. But then again I seldom cry.. Only when I feel very helpless that's all.. But one advice: never ever indulge in self-pity. In addition to its uselessness, the situation can even get worse. I have learnt to guard my thoughts over the years, to replace every negative thought with a positive one. This has helped me tremendously. And as Pst Kong always say, "Your attitude determines your altitude." Must consistently remind myself that.. Ya.

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I walked to school this morning! =) Happiness. 20 mins or so hehe.. Try again tmr.. =)

Donno why so sleepy today.. slpt so much during maths and chem lect!!! Sigh.. For a moment I even had a dream. How terrible.. Poor yu su had to keep waking me up and up and up.. Thanks girl. But next time try other tactics k? I like your suggestion of using the tissue thing.. haha.. Nvm I give you another chance. LOL~ Hopefully there won't be a 'next time' la! haha.. Had a nice day la. Played tennis with her after school.. Tempted me.. actually wanna study.. HAHA..

Anyway, I was just thinking about this... Where there is love, there the people will be. Love is almost as important as food as a survival essential.. When you are hungry, almost everything tastes good. Similarly, when you are hungry for love, a little will not satisfy you and will left you searching for more. This is a time when you also need to guard your heart... To be conscious of your sources of love. They will either edify you or leave you feeling emptier. So, ya be wise. But then again, not all are saints.. People, they will let you down. Again and again. Me too, I have let my friends and family down.. They have been mad at me. Moral of the story? I can confidently say, ONLY God can offer us unconditional love. I am glad I have a love bank I can go to! A bank that never run dry and is always overflowing! Woo, I feel rich. HAha..

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Had a fun day! Fun day in church! YES, a day in the house of God is better than a thousand days in the world!!! A world where reality hits you so hard you could barely stand.. Quoting from a verse, "My flesh and my heart fail;But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." And what is portion? It is something that you choose above all other options. Yup.

I am weak, I admit. I don't even dare to face some truths at times.. let alone experience and go through them. They are daunting. I am afraid.. Remember, I am only a human..

But I choose to turn my eyes upon God for His magnificance looms over all my problems and the glory of His light will dim the circumstances around me. See, His presence alone is enough. What more when He begins to do mighty works?

And no, I am not religious. I am only having a intimate relationship with God. Something it can never be exchanged with.

oh ya, just did an extreme makeover for my blog.. a bit too cute for me right? lol.. still under construction though due to my "computeric" illiteracy. I feel it's so unsightful with the instructions, which is meant to be private, being put up. Haha.. Anyway, let's just ignore those parts.. =)

Err.. I don't even know where to begin. HAHA.. It feels weird now to blog.. *scratch head*

Erm.. I played tennis today? It was fun! Addicted.. still trying to lubricate my moves like what I am doing now with my blog.. Haha.. Err.. then what else? LOL.. maybe I should just stop here. I think writing this is worse than writing a GP essay.. cos for GP you will at least know how to go about writing.. erm. ya. so that's all for today! Thank you and have a nice day!

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I am falling

I don't know where I will land

But I know God is there to catch me

And lift me up

Take away my fear

I don't wanna be afraid

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My faith

It is in God alone

My trust

It is in God alone

My hope

It is in God alone

My life

It is in God's hand

I surrender all to Him.

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wow. 4 days at the SIS.. broke my record. Went on thurday for choir practice with Hillsongs!! That was the day he came up and talked to me too hehe.. and i tell u, i was lost for words. Friday and Sat were the first 2 days of Festival of Praise whereby 120 churches in Singapore combined to praise n worship God together. It was also the launch of our church album "cross" and I had fun being the mobile seller hehe.. though i faced some weird people. Some were sacarstic and i didn't bother to entertain them so I walked away. My energy shouldnt be wasted on these people.. I think i'm so not a 'sales' person.. haha.. My mentality is that if you don't wanna buy then don't, I won't persistently convince u .. But i did convince a few and they actually bought it so it was rather encouraging hehe.. I prefer the 2nd day of FOP more maybe cos I got to sit with my cg. There was such an excitment in the air to want to praise God and I think we rocked the entire stadium. Am thankful to have alice and birdy to go home with at night, I always enjoy it. =) Sunday! It was our church 16th anniversary and we had our service at the indoor stadium again. =) IT WAS SO GREAT. The whole stadium was fully packed with people and that only consisted of our church! So proud of city harvest! =) God's presence was so tangible and I believe the new friends that joined us felt it too! =)

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And today! I went sentosa with alice. Thot there won't be any sun but it appeared! Much to our pleasure. =) Went kayaking at sunset bay. they increased the price! So ex now.. It cost 8 bucks just for a single kayak per hr.. we went nevertheless hehe.. training for next yr's extreme sports alice said. haha.. after that we went to the dragon trail and trekked the whole trial haha.. We were a bit adventurous so we went to explore the remnants of the war at Mount donno what.. quite eerie i thot.. but we had fun la! =)

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okie have to study now.

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I have a BIG problem.

I have cried out to God nights after nights.

He never fails to comfort me.

His love embraces me

It warms my heart.

In His secret place I will dwell

Where the world can't get me.

They can try

but they can't win.

For if my God is for me

Then who can be against me?

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Finally have a day for myself.. Thought I could stay home the whole day to rest but my dad he brought me to east coast and we had a walk.. then dinner.. then Mount Faber.. Feel that our relationship is so strong now.. I'm so proud of him, I think he's a strong man. Though I don't have everything, but I know he's done the best he knew how to. I know he loves us more than anything else on planet earth and that's more than enough.

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Know what! My dad just told me that he's bringing me to Johor to a beach resort! so cool can.. but it's on 7,8 n 9.. meaning I have to miss celebrating the church anniversary as well as.. national day? lol.. and my school's sports day.. Also, my common test falls on the same week.. zz.. HOW.. He told me I can bring along my friends too if i want.. SO COOL la.. BEACH leh! Haven't seen the sea for like ages.. Since the first week of june at sentosa.. So jing tui liang nan now haha.. most prob i'll bring along my work as well if i'm going.. pathetic right. But these few days I feel like the most blessed person in the world. My dad he just keeps giving me money and buying me stuff.. Like a BED, a comfy blanket, bedspread, a shirt, a Bible and more food. Haha.. I think God is just so amazing. I remember crying so much after I pleged.. And true enough, the law of harvest never fails. To be more precise, I can stand strong on God's promises without fear. And ya, I can't fathom how anyone can leave God after experiencing His unconditional love.

Tired day.. School was a bit more fun cos Ben brought his violin. I played it for the first time and it was fun! Kind of addictive.. but i don't really like the squeaky sound.. haha.. Well, went to a social service centre at tiong bahru with my class and another one.. The centre is catered mainly for the delinquent and troubled youths.. didn't turn out as i expected it to be but i came to know more about social work, sth which i'm very interested in. But it's a shame to see a girl who kept correcting the speaker's pronounciation while he was speaking. stuck up la. what's the big fuss about it.. words like 'cirque' and another french word.. and another girl asked questions like she was so suggestive of a fight. The speaker had to ask her with a hint of sacarsm, "Are you from the debate?" I could sympathize with the speaker.. and I admire his tolerance. It's no wonder people don't have a good impression of jc kids and I can't disagree too. The reason why I'm so interested in social work and counselling is because part of me have gone through the stuff that the people have gone through.. and I can more or less empathize with them. I have tasted the bitterness of hardship and I know I've grown and become stronger after that. I wanna make use of my experience to help them cope with theirs. Nothing in life is ever wasted ya. So it IRKS and disgust me when insensitive people make bad remarks about stuff like that... Well, let's see who has the last laugh.

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My mood was slammed after the trip there and I felt really tired.. But I garnered enough strength to go for Ravi's band performance at nyjc... It was good, sort of lifted me up a little.. NY, the school that jeered us during the girls' 'A' division volleyball match, looks rather like a CC to me. But it's a beautiful school. Like it. Oh ya and it's friday today! yay.

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School was not that bad today. =) Had quite a bit of fun laughing at my chem lecturer.. She kmows where to tickle our funny bones.. Her favourite words are "suarcture" (structure), "electron croud" (cloud) and today she introduced us something new, "involring" (involving) LOL~ Anyway, that aside..

Today i was studying in church at ard 6 plus when Bird called me and told me sth which I couldn't help but to exclaimed loudly.. She told me she saw RANDELL TAN at PS.. not only that.. he was with melody chan!! Sigh.. Forever her.. Let's wait for their confession. Sth uplifting, she told me he is better looking on screen.. hehe..

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Suprise no 2

While studying, I received blabla's business card.. And I was SHOCKED la! Who is that cheeky person who sent it.. But at the same time I was smiling to myself la. hahaha.. I thot it was henry cos only a few people know about it.. but he told me it wasnt him.. So i didn't bother cos i couldn't think of anyone else.. THEN..... after a while, Malcolm popped out behind me with his cheeky smile... Then i know liao lor. But how he came to know it, is still a mystery yet to be solved.. Erm there's nth much I can do with his no anyway. haha..

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School has never been so fun!!! Today I met diana after school to study.. Saw Malcolm then we decided to go to LT 5 to play the piano! haha.. At first there were only me and diana and the LT was kinda scary at the back where the piano was.. Then stupid Malcolm tried to scare us from behind.. OKie anyway, we had fun la! Like the whole LT belonged to us.. LOL~ Mal took the mike and SANG on the stage! SO LOUDLY!!! His voice was so high some more la.. LOL.. Then I tried to dance like a ballerina! SUPER FUNNY!! Diana was laughing there la.. haha.. All sort sort one.. LOL..

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And today!! Yang lent me his mp3player which can record songs!!! So fun can!!! Why didn't anyone tell me such thing exists! I'm going to stay home this whole week as much as i can to play with the recording haha.. One step nearer to producing my own album! lol~ Thanks yang! If I ever make it big.. I will give you a CD plus autograph haha! Like you want like that.. lol~

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Sometimes, it's just so hard to love the people around us. Is that a result of being self-centered? When we are only concerned about ourselves, we become myopic to the circumstances around us and thus do not look beyond our own comfort zone. Like what Pst Kong said, we should remove the "I" axles, where everything revolves around ourselves, and instead, replace it with a "God" axles, where we revolve around God. This way we can be able to look at things the way God looks at things.. Our hearts will begin to grow bigger.. We become more forgiving as trivial matters do not bother us much..

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Often, the world doesn't understand the things we do. They see us as a bunch of fanatics who have gone 'crazy' for God. It hurts me so.. Is God so hard to understand? He is just someone who loves us like no one else can.. Someone who gave His only Son, Jesus, to die on the cross so as to establish a relationship with us, the sinners, who don't even deserve the kind of love He gives.. Is this so hard to accept? God is constantly knocking on the doors of our hearts, waiting ever so patiently for us to open just a bit for Him to enter.. I remember a song that goes like this..

"Make my heart Your home

It's a place where You can come and stay

My heart's Your home

Live in me

You want only the best

For me

Come home"

Nice.. =) And like what Pst Kong always say "We have nothing to lose, but everything to gain." Amen!

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Couldn't sleep last night.. So I lay on the bed, with thousands of thoughts flashing through my mind.. Thoughts about God, friends, studies.. and erm.. something else hehe.. Out of a sudden I just had an inspiration to write a song. So I went to take my hp to type in the lyrics.

It goes like this..

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Hold on tight unto Jesus

He will never let you go

In the rough waves of your life

Know that He is in control

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Jesus reigns above all storms

I don't have to be afraid

Look to Him and He'll be there

Beside me and through it all

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Your love

It comforts me

Your peace

It stills my heart

Your strength

It pushes me on

I'm honoured Lord

To be under Your arms

I'm amazed

At the wonderous works of Your hands

And...

I'm simply happy. =)

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haha Henry commented that my previous entry is like my own psalm hahaa.. YA!!! Praises from my heart! =) Today I was taught a few life lessons in school.. During PE, my teacher told us "Everyone can run, it's all in the mind." And during GP, Sally chua told us the meaning of a "challenge", it is a problem to be overcome. Both of these link me to our life journey. Life is a marathon in which everyone is involved. Some may be fast, some may be slow, and some may even stop at a point. The fact that it's a marathon indicates that you're not running alone. When you feel like you can't run anymore, your friends will be your supporters who cheer and encourage you on. But ultimately it's still your choice to want to fight on and continue the race. I think there is a greater battle up there (in your mind) than your circumstances. And once you can overcome that, your marathon will be a smoother and a more enjoyable one. Of course plus the supernatural strength from God, you can leap high above the tallest and seemingly invincible hurdle.

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*proudly declare* I'm in a relationship with my Beloved!! I just can't get enough of Him!!! I wake up every morning thinking about Him and all the good things He's done in my life!!! How blessed am I!! No one else can fill my heart like He can! My countenance radiates joy that's overflowing in my heart! And there is certainly none like Him in all the universe!!

I had such a great time singing and worshipping God in the choir!! Love every moment of it! =) And i'm so honoured to be able to sing for the next 2 services for the Arise and Build!! =)

Ya no "full stop" in this entry cos I'm so filled with excitement!!! =)

what a day. I woke up feeling nua.. I thought of God and thanked Him for this new day. My dad went to buy breakfast for me n my bro.. I couldnt wait anymore and ate 2 digestive biscuits.. Man, it tasted so good. 24 hrs without food was quite a challenge, but "overcomable". First period was maths but i couldn't stay awake! I was hoping the lemon Fisherman's lozenger could perform some kind of miracle, but it was in vain! I blamed the full breakfast for that.. haha.. Civics was great. Funny.. Our school invited the 1999 manhunt winner for a talk about social etiquette.. I thought he was charismatic. But not the type I'd go out with.. haha.. Too stressful. I must admit that sometimes I don't have xing xiang. Ya, just let loose! What for give yourself unnecessary worries.. Today, 30 june 2005, I broke my record of breaking an apparatus during chemistry practical. The practical was designed in such a way whereby they didn't give room for errors. If you had an anomalous result, gone case. You won't have enough time to finish gracefully.. Right from the start I did some no-common-sense mistakes and man.. demoralised. Nvm.. work harder for the next test.. I think failures + right attitude propell us to a higher level and in everything I do, I must excel! And of cos I can't do it without the strength of God.

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.

Ephesians 3:20-21

2nd day of school. And am still surviving well.. hehe.. Had PC to kick start the day.. man.. it was kind of stretching for me.. Running on the treadmill is so different from running on the track! And to think that after gymming.. 6 rounds are conquerable.. Worse still, i had a full breakfast earlier.. I could feel my semi-digested food piling up in my esophagus haha.. napfa coming up! gotta train for my 2.4.. haha.. must breakthrough this yr! =) Had a bio test straight after. I thought it was a relatively easy paper, thank God, but it was tricky. So, hope for the best. =)

*A love song, I sing to You.*

Wah first day of school today.. Better than i expected.. It was all lectures for me.. Had a new timetable which i think is better too. Earlier dismissals.. Bio test tmr, hope I can do better.. I believe life is all about looking forward and moving on.. Fell down? You stand up and stop whining..

I went to the airport after school to send jane off... I teared a little when she was about to leave at the departure gate... I walked past it earlier and i saw people hugging and saying their goodbyes.. things like that always make me wanna.. cry... Or maybe i'm a lil' emotional today.. ha.. kind of moody today.. maybe cos it's the first day of school? or more likely it's the bio test tmr.. or maybe it's becos.. i've done things i shouldn't have done..

*God, teach me to be more like You*

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Cell group meeting was really FANTASTIC!!!! From the games right up to the fellowship.. Praise was solid! There was an excitement in the air, you could literally feel it! Worship too! A lot of people spoke up in faith and really flowed.. edifying! =) At the end of the cg meeting.. We presented Jane her farewell videoclip.. man.. it was so touching.. and of cos jane cried! (that was our motive heeeheee) We prayed for her and gave her the farewell gifts.. took photos.. YA!! That's what a cg is about! LOVE for people! Through the good n bad times.. We're sending her off on monday.. Another crying session again! 3 yrs 7 mths in Melbourne! Hopefully i can have enough cash to fly over there for a visit! =)

Our cg is really happening!! After cg meeting at Darren's house, we went over to Jean's house to celebrate her bday!! =) 11 coursed buffet la! haha.. It's no wonder people have been commenting on my size.. LOL.. Okie, note taken. =)

School's starting! Blessing in disguise i should say.. How I wish I can lose weight by exercising my brain!! Ya okie, fat hope.. argh, the word 'fat'.. argh, again! Okie, it's not like I have a phobia for fats.. anyway, i'm more motivated to lose weight when ppl start commenting haha.. so by all means, help me! =) Furthermore, my self-esteem is not that low, so I'll not be that affected emotionally.. haha. (cos i always think it's my muscle mass that causes the increase in weight.. hahaha.. okie don't laugh at me now.) heehee..

Wow.. Take a look at this..

G od's
R iches
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C hrist's
E xpense

Jesus died for us so that we can fully experience God's goodness! We are no longer under the dominion of sins and now can fellowship with God. =) How amazing.. I feel so.. FREE!!! =)

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How it is feel to have a meal with people who slurp up their food? It's like a total turn-off. Can't they just shove their spoons a little deeper into their mouths.. the energy used is negligible compared to having to suck up the food.. I totally don't understand.

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SIAN!!!!! woken up by my brother.. This is a cruel thing a brother can do to a sister in the middle of the night.. totally frustrated. God, help me to live with him! Give me a strong and tolerant heart! Ok, actually i'm much better now. =) just that it'd be hard for me to sleep again later..

Apart from that, i had not a bad day! Gary kicked start my day by calling and waking me up, asking if i wanna go visit bimei at the hospital with him.. i blurily answered cannot.. cos i've a date with cai! at the gym.. hehehe.. Gyming can be interesting if u go with a friend. And the best part about a gym is that we are motivated to crucify our flesh due to the calory indictor and the countdown timer.. haha.. Oh ya, plus a lot of fit guys who are normally not very good looking. The gym also has a big mirror which is kind of deceiving.. this makes me like to look into it.. It also has a weighing machine, which hopefully, is inaccurate.. But well, maybe that is to compromise the deceiving mirror and bring us back to earth.. and the cruel reality. Went to cai's house after that.. wanted to watch a movie intially but her brother came back from army suddenly.. sigh. so we ended up watching what? channel 8 variety show.. haha.. and making fun of 'the red dress' HAHA.. my dad came to fetch me and ya that's more or less my day. =)

Thought of the day: Ever met someone who is too good to be true? I have!

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what a day!

Woke up early for Madagascar at 1010am! man.. That was the earliest movie i've ever watched! Went with damian.. He treated!! yay! There were only around 10 people in the theatre.. haha.. And the show was so funny and cute. Haha..

After the show i went to do my chemistry hw at jurong east library (have to catch up!).. while he went to his grandma's.. Cai joined me later.. haha we were at Cafe Galilee and we bought nothing.. then the so-called waiter came over to us and paisehly asked us to buy a drink or sth.. hahahaha.. so funny la. han na han na buy la!! HAHAha...

After that cai went to work and my dad came to fetch me.. and we went to have dinner with my bro as well.. and i tell u, eating with guys is never quite fun.. they always eat so fast. But one thing good is when sharing desserts with guys, they always allow you to have the bigger portion.. =) anyway, after dinner we went to amk cc cos my bro wanted to watch a bball match.. me n my dad went for dessert and met yeekiat! haha.. He walked past me with his back facing me and i was quite sure it was him by the way he walks but i didn't dare to shout his name (scarly wrong person) so i called his hp haha and asked him to look behind.. at first he thot i was making a prank call haha.. what'd a jurong girl do in amk? haha.. he came over and we chatted for a while.. he left and so me n my dad went to join my bro to watch the match.. it was.. very interesting. The white team comprised mainly of tall and framed guys but vice versa for the black team.. sad for them. ha.. me n my dad blacklisted No. 14 of the black team hahaha.. went home after that. =)

nice day!

Thot of the day: Nobody is perfect (ya cliche..) the near-perfect one may be just right in front of us.. if we keep ourselves busy looking for better ones.. we may not even see what has already been 'presented' to us..

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wow such an exciting weekend!!

friday

celebrated bro edmund n sis jiahui's birthdays! A lot of zone members went down specially for that and hehe.. it was supposedly meant to be a surprise.. But bro ed was sharp la.. he knew it already. haha.. It was a thrill for us to try to sneak around the auditorium.. hahaha.. but me and cai were most pro.. we were sitted at the floor area (back of A2) imagining if bro ed was to walk past us, how terrible that'd be and we actually joked about it. haha.. and the next thing we knew.. he did just that.. lol.. i was totally stunned cos we didn't expect him to walk that way.. he saw us and gei gei asked with a mischievous smile, "here for service ah?" haha. me and cai burst out laughing till i turned into a tomato haha.. apart from that little incident.. the celebration was great!! As always.. =P I think everyone in the audi diverted their attention to us.. But it's okie haha.. oh ya the gifts were superb too, with an addition of 3000 bucks. woO.. Our zone supervisor and his wife what..!! Sacrificed so much of them for us... They deserved the blessings! =)

saturday

Had an awesome time during cell group meeting! Presence of God was strong in the place till sis jinlian was so overwhelmed that it was hard to preach! solid la.. we didn't have refreshment after that cos we went to jane's house to celebrate her bday!!! =) Lots of fun, food and friends! We had a great time of fellowship and bonding! as well as video shooting and photo taking (which often take ages) haha.. me and engchang had our share of shameful acts too.. =P

sunday

Woke up early to meet my cg for breakfast.. and man.. i was finally on time! I was at the cafe waiting for the rest and decided to compose a song for Jane's departure... And so i did! and it turned out well with editions here and there from a few members.. hehe.. can't wait to sing and see her cry.. hahaha.. Service was great as usual and i think Pst Kong is amazing! Had discipleship session with sis jl and a few cg members after lunch.. I'm always looking forward to that!! It's a time to grow and learn.. to see things from the leader's point of view and to discover our blindspots.. so as to help the entire cg, as well as ourselves, to go into another level. Today's was about how to gain people's respect. So blessed by it! =) After that we, and some zone members, headed down to Gleneagles hospital to visit Bro Ed and Sis JiaHui!! She has just given birth!!! Congrats!! She seemed to be recovering real fast and baby nicole too! She was peacefully sleeping like an angel in the midst of all our 'waaahh's and 'eeehh's haha.. Bro Ed showed us video clip and pictures of the deliverance process and i was so engrossed! Cos i've nv seen sth as real as that.. haha.. Our God is a God of creation! It's marvellous what beautiful things can be formed from His hands. Including me and you! =)

Fun day! Good night! =)

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Man.. Life is just unpredictable. You'll never know what you'll know next.. You'll never know what you'll get into at a turning point.. This makes life spicy huh? That's why it's always important to include the Holy Spirit in your journey, to guide and lead you. Sometimes we take matters into our own hands assuming we can handle them.. but it's like going into a jungle without a compass.. the more you think you can nagivate your way, the deeper into the jungle u go..

*Leave it to the Master*

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wah emerge was greeeeatt!!! Presence of God was so strong!! I couldn't help but to weep each day.. touched by God. We serve a living God! A God who is so real to us just like our friends and a God who is nearer to us than our very breath. I'm so motivated now to do so much more for Him.. He only deserves the best cos He's a perfect almighty God. He can melt the hardest heart.. transform the messiest life.. and resurrect a dead dream. i'm loving Him more and more each day!!

Had the extreme adventure ytd.. man.. it was really.. extreme. We had to canoe, cycle, carry our bikes up steep slopes, more cycling, run, climb and more running.. the dragon trail was really tough.. And we had to do all these in the mid afternoon sun.. I nearly gave up halfway, my calf muscles were like saturated and i had stitches.. but i couldn't.. that was a pair-work.. the least i must do was to try my best and finish the race.. and so we did and came in 4th.. the top 3 were simply awesome and deserved to win. But i feel, at the end of the day, all who completed the race were winners who fought and overcame the psychological battle up there.

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Went to the gym again!! haha.. with alice and cai.. best buds! Very satisfying workouts hahaha.. Training for the extreme adventure this thursday.. *inhales deeply* can't wait for emerge tmr!!!! It's finally coming!!! and YAY!!! i'll be singing in the choir!! all 3 days! hahaha.. so excitinggg... =)

Anyway, i was reading this book "Know Why You Believe" borrowed from Alice.. it was so captivating la.. i read till 3.30 in the morning.. and of cos i have my "the Ultimate Secret Garden" to keep me company.. =) the book is really good.. my faith is renewed + increased. It tells us about God and why do we believe in Him..

How do i know the God and Jesus Christ of the bible is true??

-objective (external factors: historical facts)

-subjective (personal experiences with God)

And who created God?

-the cause and effect law (why is the letter in yr mailbox? cos the postman put it in)

-God being eternal, is not an effect and thus doesn't require a cause.

So power right.. i'm beginning to have back my child-like faith.. =)

k la have to rest early tonight to prepare for the action-pact tmr! hahaha..

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ah, gym was fun!!! Especially when we were trying to figure out how to use the equipments.. hahaha. this was the first time we went to a 'real' gym la.. i didn't know that it's compulsory to bring a towel! hahaha.. it was fun la =) after that we went to eat and gained back those calories haha.. okie la have to get ready for prayer meeting now.. at redhill! its gonna be goOd~ =)